Went to bed at about 10 PM and it seemed that I started dreaming almost immediately even though I know that was not the case.
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A little background info to begin with. Before I left on my journey I had several nights that I had dreams I didn't remember, yet seemed to have the feeling that Les was telling me all the things I needed to do or remember before I left. Didn't have the feeling that he didn't want me to go just that he wanted to make sure I was ready to leave and have a safe trip. I didn't dream at all while I was gone but did a few things he would have liked to do while I was gone.
On Wed the dream was very vivid and I remembered everything that happened. I don't know where we were, but he was dressed in bright blue scrubs, was young like he was when I met him and seemed much taller. We spent a lot of time talking although I don't remember the specifics of the conversation, but it was a very loving conversation. We sat on a bench with his arms around me during this time. I had this feeling of being safe in his arms and having this calm around me.
Can it be that he was welcoming me home? Is he here still? How do I feel about this? Kind of freaked out wondering if he has not been able to pass through the door to the other side. A couple of times right after he passed away I have heard someone walking the hall in the house and I have felt him put his arms around me so maybe he is still here with me. I do feel comfortable with him being here and I have the feeling he will leave when I don't need to feel him close anymore although I can't imagine that day coming anytime soon. I just wonder why I didn't feel him with me when I was traveling.
I talked to my grief counselor on Thursday about it and she said she would not discount this as she had heard many similar stories over the years.
Until next time..................
Deb,
ReplyDeleteHere's my take on this. I believe that sometimes our loved ones hang around just to make sure we're ok.
I don't know what would happen if they weren't but I think they are near and perhaps come to you in a dream to remind you of things to do (like you just experienced) if you are going on a new adventure like you just did.
When you did the things that you knew Les would enjoy, he was with you my friend. I think you are right if you feel that he is near and still with you.